Some may have noticed; I know my loving, understanding and encouraging partner Winter has; but I haven't been in Second Life very much at all for a few months. I come and go as my life allows and really relish my time in-world. Usually I'm with Winter but had a little time alone a few days ago and decided to take pictures of an outfit I love.
I was thinking about Squinternet Larnia, wondering how she was doing, and reveling in this gorgeous dress she had created for some Miss Virtual I can't recall. I was feeling, in my headspace, like a glorious princess. In that moment so grateful for this beautiful thing...all of the beautiful things I have in my virtual inventory created by this wonderful woman.
I had no idea what to write at the time. I had asked Winter if he had heard from our friend Monica about how Squint was doing. Monica had been working closely with Squinternet weeks earlier, helping with a new store.
Not being in world I didn't know...was there something still going on? Have people already moved on to the next thing? And how that would be a shame because everything I heard about this woman pointed to her kindness and in my mind she was still relevant.
This morning I woke up, sat on my living room floor with some coffee and friends that had spent the night, checked my email and read plurk while one was doing the same on her phone and the other was working on a project on his laptop. They didn't hear the catch in my breath. Didn't see the tears streaming down my face as I covered my mouth and continued reading the news that Squinternet was gone. I didn't think something like this would affect me that much. It made me realize that though she and I never chatted or joked she shared something with me and even though it wasn't tangible or personal it really mattered. Her work is part of my Second Life.
A few months ago Winter was asked to blog on Love Donna Flora and he was kind enough to ask me to post with him. Shortly after we posted I was browsing Donna Flora in world and Squinternet was in her shop moving things around. She looked busy and I was too shy to say hello.
1. How do you deal with criticism? I appear to shut down. I listen but I put things aside to mull over later and decide if I need to make changes. I'll usually go quiet and change the subject. It doesn't mean I'm not taking anything to heart, I just need to be alone to make what I feel are my own choices. I resist being told what to do when it comes to my life outside of my career. 2. What’s the most infuriating thing other SL residents do? Oh god...it's hard to pick just one. I'm going to choose: Acting on the belief that they are the center of the metaverse. That all creators owe them something, that they deserve whatever they want, that everyone is emulating them, commenting about them, wanting their partners/friends/looks, reading/wondering/gossiping about them. That's never the case. Ever. E v e r . Sorry. A close second are those ladies that get all bent out of shape when I bump into them and their talking tummies. "Please don't bump into my mommy" is an invitation for a good old fashioned push into the nearest body of water. They wanted the attention. Mission accomplished. 3. Which SL resident would you most like to have lunch with and why? This one's easy. Winter! Very close second is Jax Aster because he's much closer and he's one of my closest friends. 4. Who would you say is your “anti” role model? Someone who serves as a warning rather than an inspiration? My mother always said "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all." And those awful people don't deserve a shout out. 5. What was something you used to enjoy, but was ruined for you? A gamer pub called Cafe Mox. I used to go there every weekend and after I parted ways with a man I cared for very much he would go there with his new girlfriend. I got tired of trying to smile and pretend I was ok with it all so I stopped going. 6. What’s something you want to do that you’d be embarrassed to tell other people about? There's nothing embarrassing about anything I'd ever want to do. :p 7. What’s the oddest term of endearment you’ve ever used or that someone’s used for you? I call animals I work with "Buus", "Sis", and "Monkey". But I have never had a weird term of endearment for a person. 8. Have you ever fallen in love with another SL resident? Oh yes. 9. Describe a time/event in your slife that you’re nostalgic for. I do miss the days when I was a beach guard. We'd have theme parties every week and it was just a wonderful group of people. 10. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? Monica Outlander did the sweetest thing anyone could have done. She designed and created my wedding dress. I am forever grateful for that. It meant the world. <3
I am wearing:
Hair:Miamai - Loroi (available at Hair Fair) Top: Tee*fy - Lenka Bralet Skirt: Tee*fy - Laurie Low Waist Hi-Low Skirt Shoes: Surf Couture - Freedom Flops (I just fit them to my SLink Feet) Earrings: Maxi Gossamer - Sedona Valley Gypsy - Small Necklace:Nylon Outfitters - Vintage Portrait Necklace - Dr. Fishopolis Bracelets:BOOM - Knit Friendship Bracelet - Rainbow/Two Beat as One Top Poses by DelMay
This week Berry's meme asks, "What are you afraid of? What are you haunted by?"
There are loads of things that I find mildly disturbing to generally concerning...heights, going in and out of elevators, rejection, eating insects, clowns, dreadlocks, vegans, places people were killed or died, giant Japanese hornets. But I'm an adult. I understand these things probably won't kill me so I keep calm and carry on. But there is one thing that absolutely terrifies me.
When I was eight I went to Haleiwa on the north shore of Oahu with my best friend and her parents. Born and raised on The Big Island, I grew up swimming and boogie boarding, waiting for the day I would be allowed to learn how to surf. That sunny day the waves were HUGE. My friend and I were chasing the waves out and running from them as they came in. Suddenly it felt like something had grabbed my ankle and whisked me under. Tumbling, not knowing which way up, the water around me was getting darker and darker. I knew to hold my breath but I was panicked gasped, causing me to inhale a little water. I was flailing and terrified that a shark would find me. The north shore is known for hammerheads and we had seen signs warning that sharks were spotted in the area.I began to feel pressure all around me and suddenly I could see the beach! I saw my friend's father pointing at me and saw the lifeguard running into the water towards me. I don't remember getting rescued, I do remember crying. According to my friends father a wave had picked me up and was carrying me back to shore when they spotted me. Ever since then I've been terrified of drowning. I dislike seeing it on screen, I don't like hearing about it, I have a hard time watching people get baptized even. And don't get me started on Titanic. My boyfriend at the time pushed me for weeks to go see it and after we left the theater I didn't speak to him for weeks. I won't swim in open water, I resist swimming in lakes, the ocean terrifies me. That said, I love the Pacific. I've had it in sight all my life and when I'm away from it for more than a week or two I long for it.
This week I've decided to do another challenge from Berry's Blog and the friend I'd like to share is the impeccable Jax Aster. Jax and I met over two years ago and oddly would hang out in social groups but never really spoke to each other for months and months. One day after he invited me to move in next to him we started chatting and have been talking just about every single day since. In light of that it was hard to come up with questions!
Eve: What keeps you logging back into SL?
Jax: I usually log in to do work. I enjoy the creativity that my work involves and it is something I also enjoy in RL.
Eve: I really like seeing some of the RL things you've done. :D
Eve: What do you think is the best thing about SL?
Jax: I think the best thing about SL is that you get to meet a lot of interesting people from all over the world who you otherwise would never have had any contact with.
Eve: How about the worst?
Eve slowly pulls back the popcorn she was on her way to sharing...
Eve: I didn't go to MVW that year. I remember that you were working on headshots for it, we parted ways, and after I moved in nextdoor and we were talking all the time I asked you how that whole thing turned out and you were all, "I won." and I was like, "Shut the front door." Thank goodness it was all on video!
Eve: What made you start blogging?
Jax: Modeling.....it was easier, cheaper, and more convenient to learn how to take my own photos than to pay someone else to do them. And then it was a way to document styles.
Eve: How on earth are we friends?
Jax: We were involved with loonies and we were the only sane ones so we took refuge in each other's company. And....the rest is history.
I'm new to the blog world and certainly never thought I'd be like...blog blogging. Winter has been saying for months, "Blog whatever you like! Blog any time!" I'm a chicken and am rarely self indulgent but since the people I love most in SL all do this I'm going to finally give it a whirl.
Berry has been doing some funderful memes for weeks now and I decided I'm ready to jump in. Here goes!
Which was the last sim you visited? (Other than your home)Monica Outlander's Studio. She's working on some lovely things that can be appreciated in the latest viewers. I'm super excited to see how people react when she releases!
Does your avatar look like the real you? Some say yes. I don't really think so. There are aspects of rl me in Eve.
Do you wear underwear/panties underneath your clothing when out and about on the grid? Oddly I usually do! I have loads of cute panties and dammit I'm gonna wear them!
If you won a million linden dollars, what would be the first thing you buy inworld? A couple sims. And then I'd use the rest to cover the tier for as long as it would allow. I'd love to have a small community of friends living together again. I really loved that.
Have you ever bought something in SL and then realized afterwards that you had already owned it from before? Yes...it was awful. And then I go on cleaning binges because I get upset that I spent money on things I already had! What's WRONG with me!?
Have you ever done anything in Second Life that would be considered illegal in real life? Oh god yes. Breaking and entering for sure, trespassing, loitering, public nudity... *coughs*
If you could go out on a date with any other avatar, who would it be? Winter Jefferson...he's kind of pretty n stuff.
Who, in your opinion, was the greatest avatar to ever slive? Oh god...huh. I really can't answer this one. All the people I've met in SL are the amazing, truly. I'm constantly surrounded with wonder and awesome and love. They're all the greatest for very different reasons.
What is the most embarrassing thing you’ve ever done inworld? Welp...I was sitting at a MAD Agency fashion show and went to take something off in an effort to decrease lag...lagged and accidentally highlighted my "KMADD" folder and hit "Add to outfit". At the time I was the manager of the company and had the entire hair collection, eye collection, all runway builds, MAD Studio Sets, works in progress...and they all started basically landing on the runway. I foolishly thought I could remove them from my body fast enough...until some actual runways started smacking models behind the catwalk. I had to tp out of there...well really at that point I was lagging so bad I just lagfell through the floor and had to log out and relog in a Linden ocean somewhere looking like the hairiest autobot reject ever. Then I plurked about it and Winter made fun of me, and then he asked me out so it was the awesomest embarrassing moment ever.
If your avatar had a mind of its own, what do you think it would say to you? I hate when you make me walk off platforms and hit the ground...that bounce animation is so undignified.
For the curious: The outfit I'm wearing is a staple of my wardrobe. I throw it on all the time because it's so comfortable. <3
Last evening Winter and I logged in and immediately teleported to *COCO* to buy the latest ball jointed doll avatars. We then squeed at each other for a few hours. It was more exciting than it sounds.
The clothing you can buy with these avatars is gorgeous and wonderfully detailed. Winter might be jealous of my halter corset dress which comes in loads of wonderful patterns and colors.The male avatar currently only has the open shirt and drawstring pants available at this time...but honestly I'm so not complaining.
Both of us are wearing hair from LeLutka. He's sporting Jada in Opal and I'm wearing one of my very favorites, Alice in Pitch. My hair flower is available right now at Summerfest and is by BOOM.
*COCO* also has some wonderful accessories for their avatars. I picked up the Corset Piercings for my legs and their gorgeous wings (not pictured) which come in various positions and a set that flaps! The pose we used is called "Cool as F***!" from Del May and the photos were taken in our back yard. Yes, Winter has to deal with the forest because...elf.
Last night Winter took me to Electrobit City, an 8-bit wonder of the SLworld! For all avatars of the Nintendo generation, Electrobit city is run by an amazing team of 8-bit fanatics. They have created a few areas (some still under construction) where people can navigate through parts of the Mario universe in the more modern...
...and 8-bit style. These areas are complete with sound effects from the game and iconic Mario characters. We're trying not to show too much as there are some really fun things to discover. In the future it's looking like there will be some RP opportunities in the 2D-3D community and well!
Once you land take a moment to adjust. I highly recommend clicking the flashing pole when you arrive and take the tutorial to learn how to navigate. There's a fun prize for completing it. There's also something fun in the first level when you reach the castle so don't give up, just watch out for the Goombas!
While they admire how big it is, the fish dies. They wonder if they are to blame. - Rose Borchovski
The Susa Bubbles are back in Rose Borchovski's latest installation: The Arrival of The Fish. The interactive exhibit allows you to to explore the plight of the Susas as they struggle to understand their role in the death of a fish.
There is quite a bit to see, hear, and touch as well as a few gifts along the way. My suggestion: Touch everything, zoom in everywhere...find where you fit in. Because you will.
If you fall you can always run to the nearest umbrella for a ride back up. It's also handy for exploring the sculptures floating away from the main installation. I have taken more photos at The Arrival of The Fish installation and they can be seen on my flickr page.
For more of Rose's past work check out Iono Allen's YouTube account for his latest machinima of the heartbreaking installation, The Inevitability of Fate. Winter and I experienced this together, and you can read his words about it in this recent post.